I'm in the process of rediscovering so many things right now: my identity in Christ, my perception of God, my role in ministry, my life as it is in Nevada... It's an exciting and exhausting journey that is both fun and challenging at the same time. As I've begun the process of unpacking past hurts, I'm redefining and re-examining a multitude of things that I've perceived as reality for many, many years. I won't lie: it's hard work, and I have a long way to go, but I'll tell you that the little bitty rewards I've felt and experienced thus far are making it so worth it.
You see, there's this past that has molded who I am, a present that is morphing that mold, and a future that holds I don't even know what sort of contortions. But that's the exciting part: God isn't finished with me, yet. In those dark corners of the past when I thought he wasn't there or didn't care (or didn't even know about- who am I kidding- it's GOD we're talking about)- He's actually using that, years later, to morph the present 'me'. And in the present situation of new job, new home, new life in a new state- He's using people and situations to change my perception of who I thought He was and what He wanted. It's even changing what I want, and how I want to see God.
And really, isn't that what this journey is all about? I pray I never get to the point where I think I've got it all figured out. I pray that I have real friends I can trust who are willing to wound me, as it says in Proverbs 27:6, in order to help me grow. I pray that I never stop pressing in to Christ and claiming His promises for my life. And though the hurts really HURT sometimes (and the past can really suck it up big time), I pray I never forget the thorns in my life or the nails in His hands that gave me life...whatever that life He has for me may be.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Rediscovery
I'm in the process of rediscovering so many things right now: my identity in Christ, my perception of God, my role in ministry, my life as it is in Nevada... It's an exciting and exhausting journey that is both fun and challenging at the same time. As I've begun the process of unpacking past hurts, I'm redefining and re-examining a multitude of things that I've perceived as reality for many, many years. I won't lie: it's hard work, and I have a long way to go, but I'll tell you that the little bitty rewards I've felt and experienced thus far are making it so worth it.
You see, there's this past that has molded who I am, a present that is morphing that mold, and a future that holds I don't even know what sort of contortions. But that's the exciting part: God isn't finished with me, yet. In those dark corners of the past when I thought he wasn't there or didn't care (or didn't even know about- who am I kidding- it's GOD we're talking about)- He's actually using that, years later, to morph the present 'me'. And in the present situation of new job, new home, new life in a new state- He's using people and situations to change my perception of who I thought He was and what He wanted. It's even changing what I want, and how I want to see God.
And really, isn't that what this journey is all about? I pray I never get to the point where I think I've got it all figured out. I pray that I have real friends I can trust who are willing to wound me, as it says in Proverbs 27:6, in order to help me grow. I pray that I never stop pressing in to Christ and claiming His promises for my life. And though the hurts really HURT sometimes (and the past can really suck it up big time), I pray I never forget the thorns in my life or the nails in His hands that gave me life...whatever that life He has for me may be.
You see, there's this past that has molded who I am, a present that is morphing that mold, and a future that holds I don't even know what sort of contortions. But that's the exciting part: God isn't finished with me, yet. In those dark corners of the past when I thought he wasn't there or didn't care (or didn't even know about- who am I kidding- it's GOD we're talking about)- He's actually using that, years later, to morph the present 'me'. And in the present situation of new job, new home, new life in a new state- He's using people and situations to change my perception of who I thought He was and what He wanted. It's even changing what I want, and how I want to see God.
And really, isn't that what this journey is all about? I pray I never get to the point where I think I've got it all figured out. I pray that I have real friends I can trust who are willing to wound me, as it says in Proverbs 27:6, in order to help me grow. I pray that I never stop pressing in to Christ and claiming His promises for my life. And though the hurts really HURT sometimes (and the past can really suck it up big time), I pray I never forget the thorns in my life or the nails in His hands that gave me life...whatever that life He has for me may be.
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