In a conversation over the weekend, a mentor and I were talking and he made the comment that he didn't know what I was going through, and didn't need to know unless I wanted to tell, and was praying for me. Those words 'what I'm going through' got me to thinking, and this post is the result of those thoughts...
In answer to the question, 'What am I going through?'- here's my response. I'm going through life...my life, to be specific, and it's a rather blessed life. I feel so lucky to have grown up in a Christian home with rather strict parents (though, as a teenager, I didn't think the strict part made me particularly blessed), Godly grandparents, beautiful homes, always enough food and almost enough clothes and shoes :). I went to college, got my degree, married, career for a while, and then full time mom...etc, etc. But the answer to this question, or statement as it was posed, have been haunting me this weekend...a weekend where we talked about breaking free of chains and our past and the past of our families.
You see, my life has been what it is: awesome, blessed, full of laughter and tears, accomplishments and failures. What I'm going through now, however, is realizing the hold the enemy has had on my life since I first accepted Christ as a little girl. Who I am and who I've always thought I was have been molded and shaped by not only God's word and His call on my life, but by lies from the enemy that have been whispered in my ear since I was a child. My entire reality is going through a major shift. The lies have been my truth and my reality. Trying to determine the truth from the lies becomes overwhelming at times, and my head swirls like a black hole full of thoughts and phrases - truths, lies, half-truths, truths swallowed by lies, etc...
I'm beginning to differentiate more and more, the truth and the lies, and I'm clinging to those truths that I know are TRUTH...and I'm standing against those lies that I know now are lies... As for the lies that I don't realize aren't truth...God's revealing them to me one by one... And that's what I'm going through...
Monday, September 8, 2008
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Monday, September 8, 2008
What I'm going through...
In a conversation over the weekend, a mentor and I were talking and he made the comment that he didn't know what I was going through, and didn't need to know unless I wanted to tell, and was praying for me. Those words 'what I'm going through' got me to thinking, and this post is the result of those thoughts...
In answer to the question, 'What am I going through?'- here's my response. I'm going through life...my life, to be specific, and it's a rather blessed life. I feel so lucky to have grown up in a Christian home with rather strict parents (though, as a teenager, I didn't think the strict part made me particularly blessed), Godly grandparents, beautiful homes, always enough food and almost enough clothes and shoes :). I went to college, got my degree, married, career for a while, and then full time mom...etc, etc. But the answer to this question, or statement as it was posed, have been haunting me this weekend...a weekend where we talked about breaking free of chains and our past and the past of our families.
You see, my life has been what it is: awesome, blessed, full of laughter and tears, accomplishments and failures. What I'm going through now, however, is realizing the hold the enemy has had on my life since I first accepted Christ as a little girl. Who I am and who I've always thought I was have been molded and shaped by not only God's word and His call on my life, but by lies from the enemy that have been whispered in my ear since I was a child. My entire reality is going through a major shift. The lies have been my truth and my reality. Trying to determine the truth from the lies becomes overwhelming at times, and my head swirls like a black hole full of thoughts and phrases - truths, lies, half-truths, truths swallowed by lies, etc...
I'm beginning to differentiate more and more, the truth and the lies, and I'm clinging to those truths that I know are TRUTH...and I'm standing against those lies that I know now are lies... As for the lies that I don't realize aren't truth...God's revealing them to me one by one... And that's what I'm going through...
In answer to the question, 'What am I going through?'- here's my response. I'm going through life...my life, to be specific, and it's a rather blessed life. I feel so lucky to have grown up in a Christian home with rather strict parents (though, as a teenager, I didn't think the strict part made me particularly blessed), Godly grandparents, beautiful homes, always enough food and almost enough clothes and shoes :). I went to college, got my degree, married, career for a while, and then full time mom...etc, etc. But the answer to this question, or statement as it was posed, have been haunting me this weekend...a weekend where we talked about breaking free of chains and our past and the past of our families.
You see, my life has been what it is: awesome, blessed, full of laughter and tears, accomplishments and failures. What I'm going through now, however, is realizing the hold the enemy has had on my life since I first accepted Christ as a little girl. Who I am and who I've always thought I was have been molded and shaped by not only God's word and His call on my life, but by lies from the enemy that have been whispered in my ear since I was a child. My entire reality is going through a major shift. The lies have been my truth and my reality. Trying to determine the truth from the lies becomes overwhelming at times, and my head swirls like a black hole full of thoughts and phrases - truths, lies, half-truths, truths swallowed by lies, etc...
I'm beginning to differentiate more and more, the truth and the lies, and I'm clinging to those truths that I know are TRUTH...and I'm standing against those lies that I know now are lies... As for the lies that I don't realize aren't truth...God's revealing them to me one by one... And that's what I'm going through...
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