A friend of mine sent me this quote from her daily devotion: We express a desire to deepen our relationship with God and there he stands in the deep end calling us to jump in and join him. There we stand, testing the living water with our toes, hesitating to take the plunge that would require a fully immersed abandonment to God. Yep, that's me. I don't like water that much anyway, but this statement speaks truth about and conviction into my life. I'd like to think I'm standing at least waist deep, but to be honest, I think right now I'm about in up to my ankles. I won't point fingers or try to analyze why I won't jump in (though I am terrified of sharks, and no rational explanation will calm those fears); but I will admit that I'm testing the waters. I'm sad because I've been in the deep end, fully immersed; but I find myself too close to the shore right now. Forgive me, Lord. Help me to be willing to be willing to take the plunge in total abandonment...