I came across this passage in Micah this morning: "Don't, enemy, crow over me. I'm down, but I'm not out. I'm sitting in the dark right now, but God is my light. I can take God's punishing rage. I deserve it - I sinned. But it's not forever. He's on my side and is going to get me out of this. He'll turn on the lights and show me his ways..." (Micah 7:8-9, The Message)

These past couple months have been an internal and spiritual battle. I don't know how many times I've cried out, "Why do I do what I don't want to do??" And the enemy has taken many opportunities to tell me why: I'm not good enough, I'm a failure, I'm selfish, I'm dishonest, I'm just bad. All of those lies keep swimming in my head no matter how hard I try to get them out or turn them off. The enemy has been 'crowing' over me. He doesn't care that I'm desperately seeking God's truth. The enemy of my soul wants to kick me when I'm down...and he has...and it hurts. These words this morning really lifted my spirit. I know that I am a sinner. I'm also selfish and dishonest sometimes. Might even fail once in a while. The truth, however, is that I AM good enough as a daughter of the King. There may be some areas in my life that I'm working on; areas that God has pointed out as sin that need to be brought to light. I deserve His correction. What I need to cling to every day is that this darkness or fog that I'm in, is NOT forever. God is on my side and is walking beside me, even carrying me at times, to bring me out of this fog and into His light. Pretty sure the enemy doesn't like that, and is going to 'crow' even louder. But I'm holding on to the promise in Micah 7:9-10, "I'll see the whole picture and how right he is. And my enemy will see it, too, and be discredited - yes, disgraced! This enemy who kept taunting, 'So where is this God of yours?' I'm going to see it with these eyes, my own eyes - my enemy disgraced, trash in the gutter."