For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. (Ephesians 6:12)
I've been taught that this war we fight is not against flesh and blood...but right now, I'm in a battle with my OWN flesh and blood, and it's fierce! Now I know the enemy is right there, prowling like a lion and ready to pounce...and he's even putting fuel on the fire. But honestly, I feel like I'm fighting myself...and I'm exhausted!
One of my biggest struggles of late is giving myself a voice. Now you may say that sounds rather silly considering I'm a singer and a teacher, and really have no problem in front of a room with a microphone; but I'm not talking about that kind of voice. I'm talking about those one-on-one conversations; those face-to-face meetings where "fine" is NOT the acceptable answer. Why the struggle? Why the fierce battle? Pretty simple...the enemy wants me silent. He wants us all silent. Passivity and inaction (or no talking) are two of his best weapons. This battle in my head goes something like this: You don't want to say THAT...what will they think? What you have to say isn't that important...it's really not that great of an idea. You don't want to be a whiner...what you're going through isn't THAT bad. You need to be a good Christian role model and LISTEN to other people, be there for THEM. Even writing this blog is a challenge sometimes. Putting MY words 'out there' for other people to read... GULP!
But God has started tearing down walls and putting light on areas that He wants to see changed in me; He wants to hear my voice. He longs to hear my 'whining', my cries, my laughter, even my silly ideas and BHAGS! (Big Hairy Audacious Goals) I've always believed that God already knows my every thought, so there really is no point in putting them to words; but I've been challenged in that area...shown that God WANTS me to put my thoughts into words- even the 'icky' ones. He loves me that much...He knows me that intimately...and wants me to know HIM. So, this battle I'm fighting...it isn't against flesh and blood...even if it feels like it's a battle within myself. It is a war with the enemy of my soul...
Friday, May 21, 2010
Ephesians 6:12
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. (Ephesians 6:12)
I've been taught that this war we fight is not against flesh and blood...but right now, I'm in a battle with my OWN flesh and blood, and it's fierce! Now I know the enemy is right there, prowling like a lion and ready to pounce...and he's even putting fuel on the fire. But honestly, I feel like I'm fighting myself...and I'm exhausted!
One of my biggest struggles of late is giving myself a voice. Now you may say that sounds rather silly considering I'm a singer and a teacher, and really have no problem in front of a room with a microphone; but I'm not talking about that kind of voice. I'm talking about those one-on-one conversations; those face-to-face meetings where "fine" is NOT the acceptable answer. Why the struggle? Why the fierce battle? Pretty simple...the enemy wants me silent. He wants us all silent. Passivity and inaction (or no talking) are two of his best weapons. This battle in my head goes something like this: You don't want to say THAT...what will they think? What you have to say isn't that important...it's really not that great of an idea. You don't want to be a whiner...what you're going through isn't THAT bad. You need to be a good Christian role model and LISTEN to other people, be there for THEM. Even writing this blog is a challenge sometimes. Putting MY words 'out there' for other people to read... GULP!
But God has started tearing down walls and putting light on areas that He wants to see changed in me; He wants to hear my voice. He longs to hear my 'whining', my cries, my laughter, even my silly ideas and BHAGS! (Big Hairy Audacious Goals) I've always believed that God already knows my every thought, so there really is no point in putting them to words; but I've been challenged in that area...shown that God WANTS me to put my thoughts into words- even the 'icky' ones. He loves me that much...He knows me that intimately...and wants me to know HIM. So, this battle I'm fighting...it isn't against flesh and blood...even if it feels like it's a battle within myself. It is a war with the enemy of my soul...
I've been taught that this war we fight is not against flesh and blood...but right now, I'm in a battle with my OWN flesh and blood, and it's fierce! Now I know the enemy is right there, prowling like a lion and ready to pounce...and he's even putting fuel on the fire. But honestly, I feel like I'm fighting myself...and I'm exhausted!
One of my biggest struggles of late is giving myself a voice. Now you may say that sounds rather silly considering I'm a singer and a teacher, and really have no problem in front of a room with a microphone; but I'm not talking about that kind of voice. I'm talking about those one-on-one conversations; those face-to-face meetings where "fine" is NOT the acceptable answer. Why the struggle? Why the fierce battle? Pretty simple...the enemy wants me silent. He wants us all silent. Passivity and inaction (or no talking) are two of his best weapons. This battle in my head goes something like this: You don't want to say THAT...what will they think? What you have to say isn't that important...it's really not that great of an idea. You don't want to be a whiner...what you're going through isn't THAT bad. You need to be a good Christian role model and LISTEN to other people, be there for THEM. Even writing this blog is a challenge sometimes. Putting MY words 'out there' for other people to read... GULP!
But God has started tearing down walls and putting light on areas that He wants to see changed in me; He wants to hear my voice. He longs to hear my 'whining', my cries, my laughter, even my silly ideas and BHAGS! (Big Hairy Audacious Goals) I've always believed that God already knows my every thought, so there really is no point in putting them to words; but I've been challenged in that area...shown that God WANTS me to put my thoughts into words- even the 'icky' ones. He loves me that much...He knows me that intimately...and wants me to know HIM. So, this battle I'm fighting...it isn't against flesh and blood...even if it feels like it's a battle within myself. It is a war with the enemy of my soul...
4 comments on "Ephesians 6:12"
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Thanks for sharing Wendy Wend!! It's nice to know I'm not the only one with these thoughts and struggles.
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Yup! He wants us clingy like a pair of BVD's :) Gotta love our God! Thankful He gives us a voice.
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Yeah you! Progress!
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You go girl!!! Nice job given Satan a couple of black eyes and maybe even a punch or two in the gut. He ain't happy when we speak the truth cuz he knows it will set us free......I'm proud of you and soooooo is God. Start talkin girl and don't stop :-)
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Thanks for sharing Wendy Wend!! It's nice to know I'm not the only one with these thoughts and struggles.
Yup! He wants us clingy like a pair of BVD's :) Gotta love our God! Thankful He gives us a voice.
Yeah you! Progress!
You go girl!!! Nice job given Satan a couple of black eyes and maybe even a punch or two in the gut. He ain't happy when we speak the truth cuz he knows it will set us free......I'm proud of you and soooooo is God. Start talkin girl and don't stop :-)
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