As I sit here, beginning this post, I can't seem to find a title for it. Strange for me, as I usually begin with a catchy blog title and a cute little tie-up phrase for the ending all in mind...then I type away at the middle. Not today... I'm sitting here at my computer wanting to blog and not wanting to blog all at the same time... As you can see from the date of my last post, it has been a while since I've written here; and if you want to be technical, my last post wasn't even written by me!

Life just kind of happened the week before Thanksgiving. I know, life happens everyday...but the Monday before Thanksgiving was one of those days where life happened, and I wasn't ready for it. Details don't really matter here. We ALL have life...and we ALL have those life-happenings that can rock our world...good or bad. It's what we choose to do and how we choose to be in those moments that can make or break us. And I am really being challenged today to not break.

I KNOW that God is in control. I KNOW that God loves me and delights in me and wants His best for me. I KNOW that this season will pass. I KNOW that I will come out of this on the other side...whatever that looks like. But KNOWING isn't making the ache in my chest or the knot between my shoulders go away. KNOWING isn't keeping the tears at bay. KNOWING isn't helping...today, anyway.

But I will CHOOSE... CHOOSE to give God total control. CHOOSE to trust Him, as He has proven Himself faithful over and over. CHOOSE to walk this road differently than I would have even six months ago. CHOOSE to find joy, even when the tears fall. CHOOSE to believe what I KNOW...