There's a scripture in 2 Timothy 3 that talks about "...weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth..." How I don't want to be a complacent or indolent woman. I don't want to be full of head knowledge and showing no fruit in my life. But I have to wonder...

All of this 'work' that I'm doing to improve myself, this journey that I'm on in search of healing... Am I only filling my head with more knowledge? With each book that I read, every Bible Study that I complete- am I just adding to my library? Or am I walking in what I have learned? Doing what I have been taught?

The classes I take and the people I learn from...Will I ever fully acknowledge the truth and accept healing? Will I enter into those dark places and admit the pain? The loss? Will I believe that the promise of redemption is for me?

I pray that I'm not just filling my head, and that heart change is on its way...