$3 worth...

I found myself frantically writing notes this weekend as our Senior Pastor Dr. John Jackson continued his series on the Best Decisions at CVC. I usually take notes; I'm one of those 'student's who has to get an A- but this week I found myself writing quips and phrases and notes all over the insert in my program. This is the phrase that started it all: Do I want just $3 worth of God; enough to feel His presence, but not enough to create change in my life?? At first I chuckled...that IS funny (especially now that I can buy more than a whole gallon for $3). Then I started thinking back to my high school days when we could fill the car with just $5...enough to cruise Friday night and then get home. As I wrote the phrase down twice (once in my notes, and once in my notebook in my purse so I wouldn't lose or forget it), the Holy Spirit really poked at me... Are there times or situations or circumstances in my life, that I'm only filling with $3 worth of God?? Ouch...because the truth is, there are. There are areas that are easy for me to fill with God, to the brim. There are also areas, that I've let $3 be just enough to keep Him there, but not really affecting or creating any change. So...what to do? First, I'm making a list (and checking it twice...oh, it's almost that time again!) of those areas that are $3 (or less!!) full of God...areas like past hurts that I know I can handle better than He (whatever!); relationships that are safe and that I keep at a distance because that's what I think is best; attitudes and behaviors that are so second nature to me that I don't need more than $3 because it seems to be working (can you say NOT!)...things like that. Second, I'm laying those down...well, I'm holding onto them at the foot of the cross, but I'm trying to let go and totally lay them down... And third, I'm asking God to fill those areas with HIM in His perfect timing, so that I can truly say "All of You, is more than enough for...all of me, for every thirst and every need, You satisfy me with Your love, and all I have in You...is MORE than enough..." (from Chris Tomlin's song "Enough") I definitely want a full tank of God, and not just $3 worth...