Straight-jackets and knocks...

I wish I could throw confetti and say, "Hooray for me!! I've discovered that gem of truth that I've been searching for!" But I cannot. The questions keep coming, and the answers are still to be discovered.

I was writing in my journal today that I'm in a straight-jacket of life right now. I'm standing in the middle of a mine-field, unsure of where to turn or take a step...so I'm not moving. There are so many overwhelming questions and cries from my heart that all of them get tangled in my throat...and I say nothing. I've been encouraged to reach out and seek others, but I've been hurt over and over and over...so I retreat.

I'm holding on to God's promises and truths; and waiting. Jesus says that He stands at the door and knocks, waiting to be invited in. I'm just waiting to hear the knock...